Today I picked up my Prenatal Yoga Deck again. It’s been sitting in a corner in my closet, undisturbed, since the last time I used it: the day I miscarried last March. In fact, I was in the middle of doing some simple yoga breathing on my back when I felt something give in a semi-painful way. Then, I felt a small amount of warm fluid come out and I knew. I put the yoga deck away a few days later and haven’t touched it since.
In my logical brain, I know that the yoga breathing had nothing to with anything..it was merely coincidental that I happened to be doing that at that exact moment. However, as much as I wanted to pick the yoga back up again, I just couldn’t bring myself to do it.
Getting it out was the first step. A few weeks ago, I got the deck out of my closet and set it on my dresser. Every time I was in my room, I looked at it. Sometimes, I picked it up and held it. Then, I decided it was high time I get my butt in gear! I had forgotten how peaceful I find yoga to be and one of the first warm up exercises I did was exactly what I’ve been needing for my aching hips.
I’m glad to finally have that resource back in my toolbox, and I feel proud of myself for overcoming the negative attachment. 🙂
Shauna said:
Wow. That is a strong memory and mind body connection. Good for you to take the steps to overcome that sad connection and try to get back to something positive and healthy like yoga.
Hope you guys are all having a happy holiday season!